Matthew 6
34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. As finals week begins, my freshman year of college comes to an end. It has been a year of trials and change for me, but i've made some of the best memories with the best people. So many amazing christian gals have poured into me over the past two semesters and their love for the Lord inspires me everyday. My biggest priority when coming to school was becoming involved in a Christian organiztion and surrounding myself with brothers and sisters in Christ who would hold me accountable. Being surrounded by such great influencers, you would think my faith would have grown and not wavered, but that was not quite the case. My faith grew more than it ever has, but it also grew weary. There were times that I pushed God completely out, but it made it seem as though nothing had changed. I didn't get opportunities I thought I deserved or the grades I thought I had earned. Friendships desolved, times grew hard, and I was in no mood to talk to Jesus about any of it. In these past 9 months, I have never been happier, but I have also never been more sad. My life has completely shifted from my senior year of high school to now. Change is something we all go through. Some of us embrace is and some of us try to run from it. No matter which one you are, I'm here to tell you, change happens whether we're ready or not. Life's a giant game of hide and seek, no matter if we find the best hiding spot where no one will find us, they eventually do and we have to face that moment when it comes. Hiding essentially gets us nowhere. We like to think that after a big or small life change we will be happy again or our stress will go away just as soon as that one dreadful event passes. We are consistently waiting for pockets of happiness. For example, finals week. A week of sleep deprivation, stress, and homesickness. Not a day goes by that I hear someone say "everything will be better after finals" or "I'll finally be happy after this week" or something similar to the two. I find myself saying it and I hear it from others way too often. We genuinely believe that after this week is over, everything will magically be okay. Our lives will be stress free and we will reach a point of happiness. That is, until the next stressful event approaches and we set our sights on getting that over with. We're a society that is always looking ahead, always waiting for these storms in our lives to pass. Having faith isn't saying, God will make me happy after I'm done with finals or when get off this shift or when summer arrives. It isn't overlooking the moments we're living right now just because they're difficult. Living in faith means taking each day as it comes and finding the good in it, or as I like to say, finding the God in it. He gave us this life for a purpose, to share His word and make Him more known. Each day is an opportunity to spread the gospel and to spread joy. He opens a tremendous amount of doors for us each day, to pour into others and for others to pour into us, but our unfocused, selfish nature forces us to look passed those opportunities to a time where we're "finally satisfied". We're never content with life or our circumstances. We focus on moments yet to come when those times are so uncertain. If I've learned anything in college, wishing away time is something I personally take for granted. I look back over this year and can't believe I'm a rising sophomore in college. There's so many times in my life where I wished a day, week, or month away just so I could reach a place of contentment, but my true contentment rests in the Lord. Having freshman year over, won't make me happy or less stressed, but sad that I wasted the time wishing it to over. Finding the joy in the little moments of each day is something I've come to appreciate more and more. Small conversations and interactions throughout the day can make a huge impact on your week. Jesus is here, he is present and living in every situation, He's in the Earth, in other people, in a bad grade or lost job. He's in our hurt, happiness, sadness, and moodiness. Through every situation he is present. He constantly chasing for our hearts, for our happiness, and for our attention. He paved the way for our joy, we just have o choose to follow it. As my freshman year of college winds down, I took the time to write a message that I needed to hear and thought it may relate to some of you as well. Finding joy in the small things in life is something thats been a challenge for me, but a challenge worth accepting. May God bless each of you in times of weariness and doubt. I look forward to writing more on the blog this summer and continuing to pour into myself and others. Thank you for reading and happy Tuesday! God bless, Sydney
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